Stand Naked in the Light

I'm a million different people from one day to the next...
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Feeling an overwhelming desire to curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out. The feeling just hit me after I was done reading a post about the Full Figured Fashion Week. Part of me wishes I had the courage and self-esteem these girls do. But part of me screams that they shouldn’t flaunt themselves in low-cut or tight dresses. But who am I to judge them?

Am I sad that I don’t have the same self-esteem? Probably. Of course, I wish I had that much confidence in my body. But I don’t want to be fat and proud of it. I want to lose weight and be healthy. Does that make me bad?